I like listening to depressing music. It doesn't fill me with a sense of loss and despair for the things that have happened in my life.
In fact, it does the exact opposite. It allows me to feel that longing, that sadness that I would feel if I were dealing with a serious hurt, without the urge to die or cause harm to anyone.
The same can not be said when I listen to angry music. This music gets my blood pumping and my heart pounding. It makes me want to do bad things, like beat people with baseball bats and kick them while they're down. I'm at my most argumentative when listening to harsh music. I listen to this music a lot when playing video games, as it hones my killing edge.
A lot of people think I'm crazy for wanting to make myself feel a certain way. I've talked to people who seem to think that allowing myself to have these kinds of reactions to something so simple as a person's voice and the strumming of a few chords is a weakness. I'm allowing myself to be manipulated and controlled by something or someone else.
I'll be the first to agree whole heartedly, which seems to take these people by surprise. They pop off with the fact that they don't know what I'm doing, but they don't like letting other people or other things control them.
I laugh when I hear that, and they tend to ask, or demand that I tell them, what I'm laughing about. I tell them that they're insane if they think that they're not being controlled by something or someone else.
I explain to them why they are being controlled, and even how, but they just shrug it off as, 'something they already wanted to do themselves so it doesn't count,'.
I choose not to point out how hypocritical that is. I know what this music does to me, and I like it and accept it, and at times, use it to my advantage. At least my eyes are open to my motivations and I don't try to hide them under the guise of other things.